Gravity
06-29-2010, 07:52 AM
Sal Karver stands among a landscape of boxes in the Karver estate. He sighs and shakes his head as he looks around his once-furnished home, now made of cardboard and packing tape. He finds a plastic tub in the corner labeled 'Bedding' and sits down on it slowly, making sure it will hold his weight. He coughs.
"This is it, this is what my life has become."
He coughs again, slightly choked up evidently.
"Don't get me wrong, I'm not saddened about any of what's going on in here. I could care less about this house, I've never had some powerful memory within it's walls that I'm going to treasure forever. I don't care about how many promos I've cut in that workout room or in this living room, my bedroom upstairs, those aren't memories I care for.
"It's the metaphor behind the whole thing."
Sal shakes his head again and stands up, unsure of what to do with his body. He nervously paces back and forth between boxes.
"Two weeks ago I told my daughter I would never leave her again. I looked her in the eyes, and with every bit of intent in my heart, I told her daddy was here to stay, she could count on her father for once in her life. I meant it, truly, I meant to be a good goddamn father."
Sal's eyes begin to well up, a tear falls.
"And then what? I get drafted? By some stupid miracle I get a chance to start my career anew, to get myself on the right track. I got a singles title in my first match, this is what elation feels like right?
"Except where is my promise now?"
He grips his hair tightly, frustrated.
"Paige isn't going to up and move to Europe, and even I can't afford to fly back here every week. When do I see my kid? When do I pick up my daughter from school? When can I go to her birthday parties, or hear her talk about her adventures with her friends? How do I watch my baby girl grow up?
"I've fucked up for six years now, leaving this kid without a father selfishly. And now? Now that I've decided to make up for it, I'm suddenly pulled away, not by my choice of course. What kind of sick karma is that?"
His fist finds a box positioned near the wall. His breathing increases as his eyes travel across the room and find the Ironman title, sitting atop the otherwise vacant dining room table. Sal walks slowly over to it and grips it in his hands.
"This is it, this is why I'm in Europe. Because my career is still important to me.
"Without this belt, what reason do I have to be here? If I don't have some kind of corporeal, physical success, can I in good conscience continue to abandon my daughter?"
Another tear falls from his eye. He sets down the belt and wipes his face clean.
"If I can't watch my daughter grow up, then by god, she's going to watch me become the greatest in the world.
"Because I need her to be proud of me.... somehow."
"This is it, this is what my life has become."
He coughs again, slightly choked up evidently.
"Don't get me wrong, I'm not saddened about any of what's going on in here. I could care less about this house, I've never had some powerful memory within it's walls that I'm going to treasure forever. I don't care about how many promos I've cut in that workout room or in this living room, my bedroom upstairs, those aren't memories I care for.
"It's the metaphor behind the whole thing."
Sal shakes his head again and stands up, unsure of what to do with his body. He nervously paces back and forth between boxes.
"Two weeks ago I told my daughter I would never leave her again. I looked her in the eyes, and with every bit of intent in my heart, I told her daddy was here to stay, she could count on her father for once in her life. I meant it, truly, I meant to be a good goddamn father."
Sal's eyes begin to well up, a tear falls.
"And then what? I get drafted? By some stupid miracle I get a chance to start my career anew, to get myself on the right track. I got a singles title in my first match, this is what elation feels like right?
"Except where is my promise now?"
He grips his hair tightly, frustrated.
"Paige isn't going to up and move to Europe, and even I can't afford to fly back here every week. When do I see my kid? When do I pick up my daughter from school? When can I go to her birthday parties, or hear her talk about her adventures with her friends? How do I watch my baby girl grow up?
"I've fucked up for six years now, leaving this kid without a father selfishly. And now? Now that I've decided to make up for it, I'm suddenly pulled away, not by my choice of course. What kind of sick karma is that?"
His fist finds a box positioned near the wall. His breathing increases as his eyes travel across the room and find the Ironman title, sitting atop the otherwise vacant dining room table. Sal walks slowly over to it and grips it in his hands.
"This is it, this is why I'm in Europe. Because my career is still important to me.
"Without this belt, what reason do I have to be here? If I don't have some kind of corporeal, physical success, can I in good conscience continue to abandon my daughter?"
Another tear falls from his eye. He sets down the belt and wipes his face clean.
"If I can't watch my daughter grow up, then by god, she's going to watch me become the greatest in the world.
"Because I need her to be proud of me.... somehow."